LAST HOPE *lyrics*

i dont even know my self at all
i THOUGHT i would be happy by now
the more i try to push it
i realise gotta let go of control

GOTTA LET IT HAPPEN
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
just let it happen

its just a spark
but its enough to keep me going
and when its dark out, no one's around
it keeps glowing

every night i try my best to dream
tomorrow makes it BETTER
then i wake up to the COLD REALITY
and NOT a thing has changed

BUT IT WILL HAPPEN
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen

its just a spark
but its enough to keep me going
and when its dark out, no one's around
it keeps glowing


its just a spark
but its enough to keep me going
and when its dark out, no one's around
it keeps glowing

and the salt in MY WOUNDS isnt burning anymore than it used to
its not that i dont feel the PAIN, its just im not afraid of HURTING anymore
and the blood in these veins isnt pumping any less than it ever has
and thats the HOPE i have the only thing i know thats KEEPING me ALIVE

ALIVE

gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen

gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen
gotta let it happen

its just a spark
but its enough to keep me going
(so if i let go of control NOW, i can BE STRONG)
and when its dark out, no one's around
it keeps glowing

its just a spark
but its enough to keep me going
(so if i keep my eyes closed, with NOBODY home)
and when its dark out, no one's around
it keeps glowing


#RelateMuch


_PARAMORE_

addicted?

gue suka semua nya..

cerita hidup nya, apa yg pernah dia lewatin, siapa yg dia suka, yg dia ga suka, masa lalu nya, bahagia nya, sedih nya, bingung nya, bercanda nya, keluarga nya, semua nya tentang dia..

tapi nggak tau  

ada sesuatu yg salah..

kayak nya gue terlalu membenani pikiran di setiap hari..

mulai ga ngerti apa mau dia, apa mau gue...

hmm... tell me!

everything's gonna be ok, right?

:(

i can't barely breathing when i imagine you're not with me or accept the fact that we don't meant to be.

hope

im always jealous:(

selalu pengen protektif ke dia..

tapi itu egois banget :(

di satu sisi gue pengen dia nurut sama gue, gak mikirin cewek lain..

tapi di sisi lain, kalo gue banyak nuntut itu gak adil banget :(

semua nya gak adil..

coba dia tau apa yg gue hadapi:(

semua nya ga adil..

semua nya ga adil buat dia..

saat gue inget apa yg gue hadapi, gue selalu pengen dia benci sama gue..

pada kenyataan nya gue pengen dia ttp selalu sayang sm gue..

tapi.... gue gak mau dia sakit saat ending nya ga seperti yg kita harapin :(

gue sakitttt...

sakit karena seperti nya gue udah tau ending nya..

tapi gue belum punya cara untuk bikin semua nya lebih lembut :(

gue tau.. selembut apapun tetep aja nyakitin dan dia pasti bakal benci sama gue..

waw.. betapa sedih nya nasib gue :(

i know it will hurt you..

BUT its killing me inside..

i already feel it...

bukan hal baru saat gue nangis setiap waktu..

gak capek gue berdoa..

minta dia selalu diberi kebahagiaan..

apapun itu artinya, gue pengen dia selalu bahagia..

ketemu sama orang yg tepat..

yg bisa tepat sayang n care sama dia..

yg bisa selalu berjuang buat dia..

yg bisa bikin dia nyaman..

yg bisa bikin dia tergila gila..

yg bisa jaga dia..

yg omongan nya dia denger..

yg bisa bikin dia bahagia, ketawa..

yg bisa jadi tempat dia mengeluh..

yg bukan tukang ngambek..

yg mau mengerti dia sepenuh hati..

yg bisa jadi tempat bahagia saat dia sedih..

yg bisa selalu bantu dia..

yg selalu ngeliat dia seperti gue ngeliat dia dengan mata Tuhan..

dan yg penting bisa nemenin dia sampe nanti :)

i love you...

sorry, if its soo unfair:(

hemm..

kadang berpikir saat harus tanpa kamu..

terlalu banyak yg udah dilewatin..

terlalu banyak..

dan pahit nya...

memang seharus nya begitu :(

sayang..

maaf yaa harus ngelibatin kamu di keadaan kayak gini..

sayang..

maaf aku gak tau harus berbuat apa..

sayang..

maaf aku udah nyakitin kamu, walaupun ini semua juga bikin aku sakit..

sayang..

maaf aku terlalu egois biarin semua nya sampe sejauh ini..

sayang..

maaf aku ganggu hidup kamu..

sayang..

maaf aku mikir kamu milik aku, padahal kenyataan nya terlalu tinggi harapan aku buat sama kamu..

sayang..

maaf maaf maaf buat semua  yg aku lakuin ke kamu..

aku cuma mau kamu tau..

aku akan selalu sayang kamu..

bahkan aku gak tau apa aku bisa sesayang ini sama orang selain kamu?

dan gak ada orang yg ngerti aku seperti kamu...

i love you soo much.. i cant stand it..

youre my spirit booster..

im so sorry.. really sorry..

if we meant to be together, it will be..

i love you..